Somehow being outside with him was better than being stuck inside, it made her feel a bit more comfortable and it was soothing in a way, her fingers drummed against her legs and while she pondered once again if she should go ahead and try to tend to the backyard while they were still here since they might be here for awhile after all, she was also thankful he didn’t brought up the fact that she had been crying, she could feel the wind chilling her cheeks and particularly the spots where the tears had found their way against her skin.

She took a deep breath and shrugged just a bit. “I figure that might be the best right now, it’s a more neutral and safe way to refer to you I suppose.” After all, didn’t part of him in a way still didn’t felt identified with that name and still didn’t believed that had been him once upon a time, it was probably going to work better if she stopped calling him like that for the time being and return to it when he actually requested it.

Another bout of silence and she finally turned to look at him. “You don’t know what’s going to happen, things happen and you can’t do nothing to stop them, if such a thing happens and I’m gone but you remain, you need to try to remain as you are and accept it, alright?”