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Character: James "Bucky" Barnes &
Time period: Post-CA: TWS
Warnings: Obsessive Bucky on the loose.


At first, independence had seemed like one of his better ideas, but he had begun to revise his opinion once he had verified certain truths, taken noted of the factions searching for him, and realizing that the world was a wide landscape where a man could get lost. After he had rearmed himself from the bodies of two Hydra agents, a drug dealer, and a gang banger, he had come to realize that slipping away, hiding, being nothing at all was very easy, too easy.

He had been built on the foundation of a command structure for more than seventy years. Even before the blurred vagueness of falling, he knew order and military command. Aside from mashed up images, feelings and impressions, he knew that he had to have some manner of structure in his life. With no more commands down the line, he loitered, slipping through the shadows on Washington for awhile, finding the unsavoury places and people, leaving a few bodies in his wake and not particularly caring that they were found and televised either. A weapon bared he moved through the chaos at first because it was all he knew, listless for anything but the violence he had played a role in for so long. It lost it's purpose without the trigger of structure.

His world stagnated as he avoided those who hunted him, and he cared little for the lives he took when they found him. They came to command him because they thought he would simply bow to old standards, that he would go back to being his code name if they applied even electricity to his brain. They hadn't earned the right to command him. They were weaker than he, hadn't even survived a single encounter when he decided to throw his weight back at them. They were weak men, lost in words and hiding behind guns and dying in the shadows of buildings and trees.

Slowly, resolution began to form from the ashes of his lost command structure. He decided he would allow himself to be commanded again, that he yearned to be commanded by someone with the strength of both character and body to overtake him or at least bow him slightly with respect. Pierce had been like that, he reflected. The man hadn't needed to physically harm him to command his respect, though he remembered well being struck when he required the prompt. A few others had commanded a similar reaction deep in his guts, and his attention snapped over to them. One at a time, he decided. One searched, the other could be found if he looked.

He had been lost for a few months, considering leaving to go to Brooklyn for more pieces of an old puzzle, but he was drawn back into Washington because beating information out of a SHIELD agent had satisfied him that he would get what he wanted. As a ghost story, he knew that the only way to get proper attention was to do something not only obvious but dramatic. His depth of dramatic no doubt would be very different from others that he knew existed, but like a well-trained dog returning to his master, he knew how to get the attention that was needed to invite a recall command.

Hydra agents were not easy to find in large quantities in Washington anymore, most arrested or underground and hiding. It took him two days to find a nest of the vipers, using the old underground tunnels that he knew well. He'd ended them to prove he might not be under command, but it was something worth earning given his skills. Their bodies were left in obvious Hydra uniforms and symbols and piled high in front of the Smithsonian. As if the symbol of his loyalty degradation wasn't enough, none of the corpses had heads, and he had piled them in such a way that he could sit atop the whole mess and lounge there as obvious as the start of a new day.

Media and police were one thing, not that interesting, but he let them think they had command of him for a moment. Let them show his face around for SHIELD and Hydra and them to know he was here. Meaningless orders were ignored, people's reactions only earned a turning of his cheek in dismissal before he knew that the police presence would be a problem to slip away from. Instead he slipped from his lounging perch to ignore warnings and breaking into the Smithsonian because it suited him there. It seemed a fitting place to bow to the command of someone worthy.
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the movies?

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
If she noticed the sudden change in his demeanor, she didn’t mentioned it and probably decided to save the information for further examination later, it had kind of reminded her of the old Bucky and the stab of longing for a past long gone was so swift and deep that had she been someone different, she might have wept in response, but she wasn’t and this wasn’t the time to let such things take a hold of her being, rendering her useless for either of them.

“The only rooms locked are the bedrooms; the others are kind of free reign. This is one of the two guest rooms, I guess you will be using the other one, the master bedroom…we really don’t go there.” It was mostly out of a sense of respect that she had decided to avoid that one, Sam hadn’t said anything and Natasha had just accepted it. “So you don’t really need to break down any door.”

Stephanie had been browsing the menu to find the contact list on her new Stark toy, when she stopped and looked up at him a bit startled at his comment. “It was just for that moment, Buck; you can take them off and find something else that might be more comfortable for you.”
eleutheria: DNT (➊➎)

yes i am on the fence with them as well.

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
“Well I think the locking of the bedrooms might be a bit of an habit and it kind of just stuck, besides doesn’t hurt to have a bit of extra security.” Even if it was a bit questionable and it was easy to overcome, but no one had been interested to break in and that wasn’t surprising since this area was relatively safe. At the other question though, there’s a long moment of silence, before she finally deciding she really didn’t lost anything by telling him. “The house technically belongs to Stark or whatever identity they came up with, but the house originally belonged to a man named Riley, a friend of Sam, and given the location and all we…we thought it could be a good place to have as a back-up.”

And giving what the man had meant and still means to Sam, she had been a bit hesitant to accept the arrangement, but she had been reassured over and over that it was fine and that maybe even Riley would have been okay with it. Didn’t stop her from being respectful about the place, though and the significance it had, maybe anyone will think she was being too sensitive or whatever, but that’s the way she was. “Bucky, you will need to take them off anyway, since I doubt you’re going to sleep in those and you also mentioned a shower, didn’t you?”
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yea but HP started that thread and it's not dying yet

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
“…Tony Stark, he is the son of…Howard.” She had been close to saying a past acquaintance of them, but then Bucky probably didn’t remembered Howard as that and he only remembered him as a target he had to take down or close to it, she still wasn’t sure yet if Bucky had something to do or not with the accident that had killed Howard and Maria and she really wasn’t ready to ask about it, nor had Tony since he probably wasn’t ready to face that particular thing yet and she wasn’t sure if she wanted to be there when he was ready. “Thank you, I really appreciate it.”

She took a deep breath, God give her enough patience to deal with him, before she looked at him with a bit of a blank expression then she stood up, leaving the phone on the bed while she fiddled with the keychain, and walked towards him before handing him a key. “For the other guest room, the room next to this one, you will find what you need there. There’s food in the kitchen if you’re hungry, so make sure to have something.”

Stephanie gave him a bit of a look, before her shoulders just slumped and she turned to walk back to the bed and pick up the phone to make the call she needed to Natasha, since it was more than likely she was with Sam already.
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yes, but HP started the fashion of splitting books even if they don't need it.

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 04:17 am (UTC)(link)
A small frown appeared on her face when he confirmed knowing of the Stark family and she was sure it wasn’t due to some long lost memory magically coming to the surface and that on itself was probably enough of a confirmation for one of the things she had feared the most, it hurt more than she care to admit and she had to remember, forcer herself to remember that Bucky had been following orders, that he had been tortured, broken enough to make them into their perfect weapon and knew nothing else more than following orders, something she absolutely refused to do as well.

Which was why she didn’t said anything when he stayed where he was, despite that the dismissal had been hinted there, and didn’t give him the direct order even when she heard Natasha’s form of scolding from the other line. “Yes, I’m sorry just found it and…no he’s not…stop saying that, can we cut the teasing for another day, please?”

Stephanie supposed her voice must have sounded pathetic enough for Natasha to stop and just give her a quick brief that yes, Bucky had pretty much killed most of the people she had managed to track, that he moved fast and that no one knew she was with him since Natasha had managed to get a hold of the security recordings, but that Bucky’s face was going around since he was caught in film and they did needed to stay low for a bit, there was a small moment of silence when Nat asked her what they were going to do now and she sighed once again, “…still figuring it out.”

“I hadn’t noticed, the way things are you can either go on this hunting road trip with him and see what you can find of whatever remains of Hydra or you can go with plan b, containment, which includes taking the winter soldier to New York, to an undisclosed location where we already managed to convince Thor to subdue him and then lock him in a room Stark has designed while we figure out what to do with him.”

And oh she so wasn’t surprised they had all considered that, it explained why they last time she had spoken with Stark he had been in London, where they knew Thor was currently residing with Miss Foster, her eyes quickly flicked to Bucky and no, she wasn’t sure if she could do that to him and apparently her silence was enough answer to Natasha, which also sighed a bit annoyed before telling her to think about it. “We will see I will call you back.”

She ended the call and just fell back on the bed, feeling even more weighted than before and her mind was close to her reaching point. “God, I need a good and long bath.” She had learned to appreciate how much those relaxed her now that she had the means to indulge with those.
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there's going to be a new HP movie right?

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 04:48 am (UTC)(link)
At the moment the rattling sound of the keys was actually a good distraction and she just stared at the ceiling, mulling on the words that Natasha had just told her and wondering her just how long had the rest planned that behind her back, she wondered if Sam had been part of it and even if he was, she wasn’t sure if she could be angry with him or any of them, in a way she could understand why they thought that plan was sound, they still saw Bucky was the soldier and not as the friend she had lost so long ago, maybe he was just the soldier now but she still clung to her feeble hopes about his memories.

She really didn’t think she could go ahead with that plan, but would that plan have its merits? Maybe if it was done differently, no, he will still be locked down as nothing more than an animal or worse, she didn’t want to force that on him. Slowly she took a deep breath and considered his offer. “Yes, please and thank you.” It made her feel a bit bad for accepting his offer, but this wasn’t exactly an order and she had made sure to make her response not look or feel like one, she wanted to break him out of that following orders mode.

Her fingers drummed against the bed for a moment. “She just mentioned something about some information she left me and that I’m clear for the moment, you on the other hand, there are images of you and we need to stay low for a bit just to be sure.” She wasn’t lying, she had said what she considered important, he didn’t needed to know about that other option.
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i think it was that thing about magical creatures

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
She could hear the water and just closed her eyes, realizing just how tired she felt at the moment. It hadn’t been tiresome in a physical, but on an emotional level it had been so draining, she had knew her clash with Bucky was going to be emotionally charged and she had tried to prepare at the best she could, but no matter how much she had tried the reality of it all was more than she could have expected, she just needed to be stronger, she couldn’t give up now, not when she was probably the only one standing between Bucky and a new life on isolation enforced by her friends.

“About Hydra, of course, but apparently some of it won’t be useful anymore, some of it might be though, I need to read it and decide later.” She decided to omit that he had pretty much made most of that information obsolete now, but he was probably going to figure it out, even if she didn’t said it out loud. With a sigh she moved to sit up and stash the phone on the same drawer she had placed the file and the gun in, she wasn’t going to need it now and the phone was not going to work for Bucky. “You do realize we are together and that still makes me a target, I don’t think I will always stop being a target for them.”
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Ditto but it brought the kind of dormant HP fandom back

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 05:52 am (UTC)(link)
She didn’t said anything about that Hydra comment, she really hadn’t in her to fight about that particular issue at the moment, she had already seen enough dead Hydra agents and members today to last her for a bit and she was going to save that fight when it was needed in the future, she was even sure that she didn’t even showed anything on her expression when he mentioned that which he could interpret as either negative or positive, it will be up to him what answer will suit him better at the moment. “I think we are both in a bit of a dire position here, we are both targets regardless of who’s the larger one or not, they want us both dead.”

And that was the end of the deal wasn’t it, she was their biggest threat and Bucky was a traitor pretty much, someone that needed to be killed for it. Slowly she stood up and smiled a bit at him. “Thank you.” She moved inside the bathroom and didn’t even bother to close the door, since what was the point, he was going to leave if he wanted it or not and he had seen her naked in the past, so it shouldn’t be such a big deal. Her clothes came off as easy as she had slipped them on, neatly folding them and placing them in the counter, and then allowing a small sigh to escape her lips when she got in the bathtub, the water was actually at the adequate temperature and she felt herself relaxing, her head resting against the wall and trying not to be tempted by just going ahead and drown herself here.
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since i haven't seen the fandom idk

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
It could have been rather easy to just slip in and stay under the water since honestly, why had her life turned out to be so damn hard? It wasn’t this complicated before she crashed that damn plane and really not for the first time she wished they had never found her and left her trapped in that icy grave she had been in, how had she even survived that for seventy years she wasn’t sure? But then probably thinking like that was selfish and a bit suicidal, or so Sam had told her when she had dared to speak about it with him, something about survivor’s guilt –which she could see some kind of sense in, she had seen people from suffering that and maybe she did but then she didn’t exactly followed the established pattern for that one.

She raised an eyebrow when she heard the jingle of keys and then what she thought was a door opening, she was quiet for a bit and went over her conversation with Bucky, added the new factors of this life, but probably some core aspects of his personality when it came to her were still present there, she was eerily quiet and barely heard the sound of a drawer opening before she sighed. “Stop going through my stuff, Bucky!” It seemed that habit hadn’t died then, he had always been curious when she had something to hide when they were living together and always took his chances when she wasn’t around to pry on whatever secret she wanted to keep from him, which had made keeping birthday present for him a dire nightmare.
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really? i don't check it since i was scared off from it

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 09:59 pm (UTC)(link)
She blinked at the hiss and then winced at the sound of the drawer slamming, she took another deep sigh and silently cursed, she should have known better than to just go right ahead and say that, this wasn’t the same Bucky that had looked at her with a rather sheepish look and tried to charm his way out when she caught him, this was the person that had been left after all the torture and conditioning that had been forced upon him by the Russians and then Hydra, he was more likely to flee and react badly, so much for having a soothing bath.

With a sigh she stood up and got out of the shower, thankful for the little mat there so she wouldn’t slip off and end break anything, the sensation of mending bones was just an awful thing. Slowly she rummaged around for a towel, quickly drying her off and then slipping a bathrobe while walking into the room and going to the drawer he had been checking, she was going to share the information with him anyway, she was after all sure it wasn’t something that he didn’t knew already and there were probably other blanks he might be able to fill up, the file had no information about him, all the files with that kind of information were still either in Hydra’s power or Natasha had hid them after they had read them.

Maybe that’s why she’s now finding herself going to his room with said file, really it was just ridiculous. “Bucky.” And that was really the only warning he got before she stepped inside and extended the file to him. “You really don’t need to go around and search my stuff, but then you always did it when I was being secretive, I was going to show you this file anyway later but since you’re so eager for it here you go.”
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Yes why you think i ran away from it lol

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 10:39 pm (UTC)(link)
At least she hadn’t interrupted him while he was changing or anything, which she had more or less been sure he wouldn’t be doing since he had more or less left it clear he wasn’t interesting in changing just yet, she was sure some of the clothes stashed here could fit better since they had gotten clothes of different sizes and styles just in case. She was sure from that point in that window he was probably still trying to scope the surrounding area, to probably making sure it was safe for the moment and she couldn’t begrudge him that, it probably helped him to establish some sort of normalcy.

“...Yes, you always got curious when you thought I was trying to keep something from you and you always tried to find out what it was, it was a particular habit of yours.” For not saying he was to nosy for his own good and she decided not to mention that, he had made it quite difficult to keep things she wanted as a surprise or was too embarrassed to tell as a secret. “It doesn’t matters when I show you or not, you know.”

With a sigh she moved to leave the file on the bed and shrugged. “Feel free to read it and look over it, I don’t need to be here while you do that, once you have done that we are going to talk about it and see what we are going to do next, alright?” And she really didn’t waited for him to answer before she left his room and moved back to her own, she was probably going to end losing her patience with him at some point, she needed to take her time here.

When she slipped back in the bath, she was kind of thankful before the water was still warm and then slid further and further to get under the water and keep herself from screaming, such an action was going to probably trigger Bucky, and just stayed there for a bit before coming back out and resting her head against the edge of the tub, maybe she had made a mistake here or should have thought more about it before agreeing.
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so you feel my pain lol

[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-08 11:57 pm (UTC)(link)
Now that she had calmed down, or at least the frustration had left and she was left just feeling so disgustingly tired, it briefly reminded her of how she had felt during those times in the field when they were hunting those Hydra bases during the war, only that back then she hadn’t been able to have to dwell much about it and had to keep going, right now she had the time to really feel it and she just felt, well, old or as old as she was supposed to be, but she was going to bounce back, she always did.

But now she wondered if she had done the right thing by giving him that file, she knew there was some basic information of him, not the one that had broke her down and caused her to say locked down in her room for two whole days while she processed everything that had been done to him and he had done, not even Sam had been able to get her out from there till she was ready for it, the info he had wasn’t that heavy but it could still have an adverse effect on him.

The mix of all this and finally allowing her body to feel just how weary she was feeling, mostly due to the emotional drainage, and just being in the warm water, which helped her to relax her muscles, prompted her to slowly close her eyes and relax further, trying to fight not dozing off since it wasn’t a good idea to fall asleep in here…

…a little rest wouldn’t hurt, right?
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[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-09 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
In all truth, well, she had managed to doze off in the bathtub for a bit, not the best place to do that but at the moment she wasn’t being picky, she just wanted to rest for a bit even if it was in such a cramped and small space. However that didn’t meant that she wasn’t aware of her surroundings, even though she didn’t wanted to repeat having to fight naked again like it had happened during her search for him, and she tensed a bit when she heard the footsteps, instinctively she knew it wasn’t an enemy but she also knew her current companion wasn’t exactly feeling on his safe comfort zone.

The fact she was able to tell he was moving in her direction was enough to let her know that whatever he had found in the file had its effects, had she had expected it and she took a deep breath, bracing herself to what could possible happen here. She didn’t reacted when he apparently reached the doorway, trying to keep herself relaxed and trying not to look dangerous, even though she was ready to react in any way he might. She slowly opened her eyes at his comment and looked at him for a few moments, taking him in and trying to see just what he was feeling, what he was thinking right now and she nearly shuddered a bit at the way he was looking at her.

In a way it reminded her of the way he had looked at her when they had been fighting in the carrier or more like when she had refused to fight him and he had demanded her response, yet there was something else there she couldn’t possible identify and it was what was holding him back. She moved to sit, the sound of the water echoing around them and sounding way to loud than it should right now, and well she really didn’t know what to say to him.

“…I know.”

She knew that she shouldn’t sleep here, she knew that he was torn between hurting her and not, she knew he was hurting and she wasn’t sure how to help him, she knew a lot of things right now.
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[personal profile] eleutheria 2014-06-09 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
She noticed the way he was looking at himself in the mirror and she couldn’t help the pang of déjà vu she felt, once upon a time, when she had time to calm down after what happened when the serum was used on her, she had spent a lot of time in front of a mirror (but she had been naked then and alone) and trying to see all the things that had changed in her body after the serum and see how much she had changed and finding at first that she wasn’t sure if she liked it, having been so used to who she had been, the fact people’s regard had changed just due to how she looked and not due to her worth had also hurt then.

But she had grown to accept herself as much as she could and she’s not sure if Bucky is doing that or not, probably not at the moment considering what he had read in that file. She hoped that maybe one day he…whatever she was thinking about soon came to a halt as soon as he started to talk, and she couldn’t help the surge of guilt that she felt at having what she already knew confirmed and she really couldn’t respond before he retreated.

Stephanie stayed there for a bit before she finally decided to get out of the bathtub again, this time she took her time and care drying her hair and body, before moving to look for something to wear since she couldn’t move around naked, could she? Taking a deep breath, she moved to his room, she couldn’t leave him when he was feeling like this and stopped in the doorway when she noticed he was under the bed, she couldn’t help the other sad pang at the sight, she still remember when he had done that when he was kid –it had a habit he had when they had met and she had sometimes slipped under with him, but she doubted he was going to appreciate it right now.

Taking a deep breath she approached and then moved to lie on her side on the floor, resenting a bit the cold against the warm skin of her arms but willing to deal with it for the moment, and looking at him not daring to move closer or further. “I am sorry if you think or I gave you the impression that I was about ready to give up, I know I haven’t been exactly myself right now but a lot of things happened today, but really Buck, the idea of leaving you now that I have you back has never crossed my mind. You’re still the most important person in my life and that’s not going to change, no matter what you or I have gone through.”

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