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Thursday, May 29th, 2014 07:53 pm
Character: James "Bucky" Barnes &
Time period: Post-CA: TWS
Warnings: Obsessive Bucky on the loose.


At first, independence had seemed like one of his better ideas, but he had begun to revise his opinion once he had verified certain truths, taken noted of the factions searching for him, and realizing that the world was a wide landscape where a man could get lost. After he had rearmed himself from the bodies of two Hydra agents, a drug dealer, and a gang banger, he had come to realize that slipping away, hiding, being nothing at all was very easy, too easy.

He had been built on the foundation of a command structure for more than seventy years. Even before the blurred vagueness of falling, he knew order and military command. Aside from mashed up images, feelings and impressions, he knew that he had to have some manner of structure in his life. With no more commands down the line, he loitered, slipping through the shadows on Washington for awhile, finding the unsavoury places and people, leaving a few bodies in his wake and not particularly caring that they were found and televised either. A weapon bared he moved through the chaos at first because it was all he knew, listless for anything but the violence he had played a role in for so long. It lost it's purpose without the trigger of structure.

His world stagnated as he avoided those who hunted him, and he cared little for the lives he took when they found him. They came to command him because they thought he would simply bow to old standards, that he would go back to being his code name if they applied even electricity to his brain. They hadn't earned the right to command him. They were weaker than he, hadn't even survived a single encounter when he decided to throw his weight back at them. They were weak men, lost in words and hiding behind guns and dying in the shadows of buildings and trees.

Slowly, resolution began to form from the ashes of his lost command structure. He decided he would allow himself to be commanded again, that he yearned to be commanded by someone with the strength of both character and body to overtake him or at least bow him slightly with respect. Pierce had been like that, he reflected. The man hadn't needed to physically harm him to command his respect, though he remembered well being struck when he required the prompt. A few others had commanded a similar reaction deep in his guts, and his attention snapped over to them. One at a time, he decided. One searched, the other could be found if he looked.

He had been lost for a few months, considering leaving to go to Brooklyn for more pieces of an old puzzle, but he was drawn back into Washington because beating information out of a SHIELD agent had satisfied him that he would get what he wanted. As a ghost story, he knew that the only way to get proper attention was to do something not only obvious but dramatic. His depth of dramatic no doubt would be very different from others that he knew existed, but like a well-trained dog returning to his master, he knew how to get the attention that was needed to invite a recall command.

Hydra agents were not easy to find in large quantities in Washington anymore, most arrested or underground and hiding. It took him two days to find a nest of the vipers, using the old underground tunnels that he knew well. He'd ended them to prove he might not be under command, but it was something worth earning given his skills. Their bodies were left in obvious Hydra uniforms and symbols and piled high in front of the Smithsonian. As if the symbol of his loyalty degradation wasn't enough, none of the corpses had heads, and he had piled them in such a way that he could sit atop the whole mess and lounge there as obvious as the start of a new day.

Media and police were one thing, not that interesting, but he let them think they had command of him for a moment. Let them show his face around for SHIELD and Hydra and them to know he was here. Meaningless orders were ignored, people's reactions only earned a turning of his cheek in dismissal before he knew that the police presence would be a problem to slip away from. Instead he slipped from his lounging perch to ignore warnings and breaking into the Smithsonian because it suited him there. It seemed a fitting place to bow to the command of someone worthy.
Sunday, June 8th, 2014 08:16 pm (UTC)
It was a pretty nice gesture for being more human, though he was still left a little uncertain and confused by what Bucky was saying. Turning the guy toward a 'decent' target sounded like a reasonable tactic. He just wasn't sure how right it was. "If you don't know who you are," he said, holding off on the rest, "then you can't know what."
Friday, June 13th, 2014 03:31 pm (UTC)
"Yeah, and so am I." Literally, because both of the super soldier serum and being shot up with another serum that turned him into a damn animal. "That and other people having opinions doesn't mean I get to stop worrying about who I actually am and what I believe. Neither do you."

Which meant if he had to turn himself fucking inside out and upside down, he was going to choke back the urge to define Bucky for him. Keep him on a leash if he had to, sure, try to help him remember, yeah, but he wasn't going to draw lines around it or encourage Bucky to stay blank. He'd rather have a totally different guy back, than enable Bucky to continue to be that empty and blank.

It was just wrong.
Thursday, June 19th, 2014 03:38 am (UTC)
He understood pretty damn well, though if Bucky understood how well and why he still wasn't sure. Was pretty sure it didn't matter right now, either. "We've got a deal, then. We'll hunt down Hydra and you'll hunt down yourself."

That he'd linked the two wasn't an accident. He wanted Bucky to figure himself out, he wanted Hydra wiped off the face of the earth. Working with Bucky was familiar and he had some of his own anger and aggression to work out. Doing it this way was at least directing it in the right direction. "We need to get out of here."